I’m a student, get me out of here!

Photo curtesy of @barkbox (Instagram)
Pretty much sums up how I feel right about now.

I’m experiencing a real sense of restlessness and wanderlust at the moment. I want out of education and I want to travel, get out in the world, before I go crazy sitting at a desk or at home.
I don’t want to draw because I have to anymore, to work towards deadlines that have been set by the system. I want to draw because I want to draw. To create pretty pictures because I want to. To create work because I bloody well want to, not because I have to for a deadline or need a reason to have drawn something aesthetic. Rant over.

Digital Collaging

After a mini tutorial with my tutor last week, he helped me to stop over thinking and start having fun with my work. After hand-making some textures, I scanned them in to my computer. My tutor then sat and helped me to play around with cutting, pasting, playing with textures, using geometric shapes and changing the colour and opacity of images to create some digital collages.

These collages explore the landscape and photographs I took whilst on my two week trek over the summer in America. Through using hand-made textures and cutting out geometric shapes, I am adding another element to my photographs, highlighting how I saw the places through my eyes, and exaggerating the colours and shapes that really made these landscapes amazing and so memorable to me.

Experiments: Coloured textures

Experiments: Texture: Cartridge paper, watercolour paper, white acrylic, pva glue, ink,

Fuck your fat stomach.

No more excuses, for work or for exercise.

Last week, at a thai boxing session, my house mate jokingly complained about her fat stomach during some ab exercises. Our coach replied with, “fuck your fat stomach”, to which we both laughed. She isn’t actually fat, just not as toned as she might like. We knew he was right, you can’t make complaints for everything, you just have to get on with it. We both want toned stomachs, and complaining about the exercises isn’t going to achieve anything.

Same goes for work. I need to stop making excuses, aka procrastinating, and start getting on with it. Fuck my boredom, my lazy attitude and my distraction of snacking. I don’t need to food, I’m just making an excuse not to do work.

New Week, New Start.

I have been struggling all week to motivate myself with university work. I sit down at my kitchen table, where I have set myself up with all my art materials, sketchbooks and laptop, and I don’t want to work. I don’t want to illustrate. I’m scared to create anything incase it isn’t good enough, incase I won’t get the good grades that I want. I then get annoyed at myself at not creating anything, and the cycle keeps on going.

I’ve also been feeling very stuck and restless. I want to get out, be out, travelling. Not stuck in a house (as much as I love my housemates!) But then I feel guilty for doing anything that isn’t work related. Another tough cycle.

How do I overcome this? I’m not really sure. 

I have a tutorial tomorrow. I don’t have a lot of work to show for it. Shit.

The Queen of Procrastination.

To put off till another day or time; defer; delay.

“I feel cold so I am just going to make a cup of tea. I am hungry. I just want to check my Facebook, my Twitter, my Instagram. Oh, look I have a message on Whatsapp, I must reply to that text. Someone has sent me a snapchat, I must send one back. In fact I should update my snapchat story and show them my art setup. Where I am not actually doing any work. I think putting a movie on will help. It hasn’t, I just sat and watched it. Maybe I should put some music on. No wait, change the radio station, I don’t like that song. Oh look five hours have just passed and I HAVE DONE NOTHING!”